not posting this on part blog cuz i dun want to spoil the ord mood. yeah. oh well. at the moment i feel like dying. somehow nothign seems to matter, dunno why either. i need counselling. i dint miss anyone and was real scared when i saw ning cry. cuz i nv really missed anyone. and somehow half of me doesnt want sec fours to go real bad, but the other half is really feeling indifferent. not only towards sec fours, but towards everyone. at least almost everyone. yeah. wads happening. im real stressed now. ncc took up my whole month of june. and ive got nth left. hopefully it clears when i get back to school. yay. hopefully. dunno if anyone notice but my social life is down the drain. i used to have both my pltn and clique. now i kinda feel like i have neither. maybe i just expect too much. maybe i just feel that friendship means that they're always there. yeah. i learn the hard way. yeah.

and i really cant stop thinking of you. you fill me with so much regret. why. go away. cant you?

please dun read. please.