cry
12.02.04 at 22:36

im so not in the mood to be nice at the moment. somehow i have totally no control over wad im feeling now. or why im feeling that way. i think my emotions have just gone out of control. help me someone. i wish there was something. i feel like sth aint right and that im changing. mood swings are seriously becoming rapid. argh. cant stand it. cant belive it. i dun wanna be weak. but i can feel myself just crying for no reason. i cant stand it. it's so different from wad i used to be. i never cried. urgh. wads wrong i dunno. i have totally NO control whatsoever. i cant stand this anymore.. urgh. and i feel so troubled cuz everything seems to be crumbling. ergh.

*mood swings*

anyway thanks gillian. she helped me with the layout which i will put up when i have time. yay. yah. and well. since im only happy 100% for like, 20 mins a day. i shall blog a bit abt happy things. hakkai is so damn CUTE. and damn sad tho. haish. anw he got his new name then goku asked him wad it was then he was like, "hakkai, cho hakkai." and gyojo was like, "you cant rmb that.." and they ended up squabbling as usual. haha. and then goku was like, "i can rmb.. hakkai hakkai hakkai hakkai hakkai hakkai hakkai hakkai.." and then hakkai was like, smiling and going, "here's a question. how many times did goku say 'hakkai'?" hahahahahahahahaah. so cute i tell you. and the answer was, "hakkai". hahah. so cute. yay. he is so cute. yay. and the first thing he said when he woke up after his coma in gyojo's room was, "i dint know heaven was this boring.." hahahahahaha. yay.

*mood swings*

ok. i hate the crumbling and the quarrels and the fact that i feel sth but i have no idea what the hell it is. ergh. i hate this.